So much for posting every single day. I missed yesterday. Sigh. I think
I'll set an alarm on my cell phone to remind me to post at, say, 8 PM every
night, or something. Longer post coming tonight - just wanted to
acknowledge my own suckitude.
Trying to post by e-mail - let's see if this works!
This used to be a writing blog. It's been repurposed. I may still write about writing in here somewhere but mostly, this is now my weight loss blog.
I have struggled with my weight for many years. That's a nice way of saying "I've lost twenty pounds, then regained thirty, because I'm a lazy jackass who can't stick to a diet and exercise plan." I've recently come out of making it through eight weeks of a projected 13-week-long Weight Watchers at work program before I quit and regained the five pounds I lost.
I'm getting married on May 10, 2008. I do not want to be a size 20 bride. I have never been skinny in my life, it's true, but I do not want to be one of those girls whose wedding pictures people see and go "oh... what a pretty face," or to have to buy a dress that camouflages my big frame. I want to be beautiful on my wedding day and I want to be healthy. I can't think of any better impetus to get myself in shape and get my life together than when I'm about to interlock my life with another's forever - if I don't get myself together, that life together is going to be a lot shorter.
I am starting this thing at 213 pounds. I would like to lose at a minimum 40 pounds by my wedding day, and I think I could easily lose more. In the past, when I've tried, the weight does come off pretty quickly. I just start getting frustrated at not being able to eat all the junk I used to be able to and swing back way in the other direction. The issue here is discipline, and that's what I'm going to be trying to focus on this time around. I'm not doing any diet plan, just eating better, which I think is more realistic as far as a lifestyle change goes than any kind of structured plan anyway.
I have a number of silly plans for incentives and things like that, which I'll detail later as I start to consider actually using them. The one thing I'm going to try to make myself do is post one blog entry a day with the day's successes and challenges, and to check in on my mental state. I'm hoping if I keep up with it and stay honest with myself I'll be better able to cope when I start to get frustrated.
We'll see how this works. I'm hoping to connect with other people going through similar struggles for support and solidarity. But ultimately, I know I really need to do this for myself... and I'm hoping to finally find the strength I need to do that.
